So many things to blog about and so little time

I left work went food/vitamin shopping and got home. Followed by watching the ladies short program. That was a few hours but so great. Only happens once every 4 years. Loving it! Gives me something to look forward to considering right now is a weird time.

For at least the 3rd time I have inquired about the same boy as I have in the past. This time I was given contact information that isn't accurate. I get a different answer depending upon who I talk to. Let me say first off that some great people are doing awesome things and working magic with what little they have to do it with. Sometimes you will encounter people who you know are doing this all for the children. Sometimes you will encounter people who just leave you puzzled as to why they are doing this at all. I get that everyone is over worked and that this is a process. I'm the process at work queen or trying to tell everyone it just doesn't happen over night. This time last year we were in class, and matching events were already planned. I keep getting the run around from different people who exactly I get that info from. This person you contact them they say that person. It's a circle that leaves you frustrated.

I left working thinking I know at some point this will all make sense. One day I will leave work to get my child(children) from daycare or after care or where ever and encounter all that fun. I know that is in my future. I just really wish I knew it was the near or distant.

Most days I wake up and go through the day positive and hopeful. Some days I start thinking this will just never happen. When I hit the road block with those that I feel shouldn't be in the field they are in I am more frustrated and my hope tank drains. I know it's time to go to sleep re charge and push forward. Nothing comes easy and because a conversation doesn't go the way you planned or hoped doesn't mean all those conversations will go that way. We all have bad days and don't mean to take it out on people but sometimes we end up doing just that.

Welcome to rambled non sense talk with so much in my head that I start thinking at this hour when I really should be sleeping.

Okay time to head to bed and get ready for the day ahead.