Life

This wasn't the way any of this was supposed to go, but welcome to life. We make plans and think life will go one way and then it goes somewhere else.

Two things that were supposed to take forever years possibly both having to do with work. Are BOTH happening now in a matter of weeks and sadly neither has anything to do with adoption. Everyone said "oh you will have a placement or more by the time either of these happen...." Yeah no......

One day adoption will take flight it's just not today. It's not our time I suppose. When is our time huh?

I so need the meeting this week. My hope take is running on empty.

Home

I also heard this song from Walmart to home.

Here is the other song I was talking about 

Rainbow

Time to get ready for some much needed zzzzz's. Before that happens let me tell me you about my drive home. I decided to hit up Walmart because I had to get a few things, and I could get them all there. So I took away I never take home. As I'm heading there I hear the song "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz. I think "yeah just last night I was having an awful time and almost tears this song is perfect because we aren't giving up..." So as that song is playing I stop at a red light look up there it is a beautiful rainbow. If nothing else it was gorgeous to look at and i'm just sorry that I couldn't get a picture. I at least have the picture in my mind.

Snow is on the ground it's cold and icy conditions but what a beautiful Rainbow my dears.

Waiting..........

The wait which is often referred to a lot in the adoption process sucks. Some days I handle it well with my emotions in check. Some days I want to cry and some days I'm just angry negative at anything. I think it's normal to have that happen. I get asked a lot of questions, and I think some have stopped asking because they maybe have given up or are tired of getting the same response. "No." "Nothing." "No change."

As I've said now that I would say a million times I wish that I had even a time line. That isn't how this works. I train the people at work to help my department in the event I go out on leave. I use to be positive about that outcome but now I'm just "yeah if that happens who knows it may it may not..."

I don't mean this isn't ever going to happen. It's more of could happen weeks months or years or it could happen in days. I doubt highly doubt the days more like months to years.

Oh wait how I dislike it.